29/11/2009

Nov. 29th, 2009 09:24 pm
I'm done for the next little while, I think. 

Impatience, however, will most likely drive me nuts whilst waiting for the next bits to fall in place. 

Contemplating a look at my magnum opus. The changes in the pathmaker also mean changes in my magnum opus as they are set in the same world. 
Justine Musk:
A young woman described the memoir she wanted to write.

The story gripped me: a bright and talented child struggling to assert herself against narcissistic parents, become the master of her own identity. Except every few minutes she would backtrack and say how her parents weren’t actually that bad, they had a lot of good qualities, she was grateful for the life they had given her…


When she talked like this, her body language became stiff and awkward, her voice a bit robotic.

It was like she was flipping between two personalities: the good daughter she had been trained to be, and the bad daughter, the rebel daughter, she wanted and needed to be.

I heard myself say, “You need to write like the bad daughter.”

 
Personally, I translate the last sentence to 'You need to be honest when you write.' 

Not just in a memoir, but when you write (fiction -- not sure it works the same way with, say, a newspaper article). 

28/11/2009

Nov. 28th, 2009 10:31 pm
Nadia has given me a possible partial solution to the problem of Form.

It's actually something I've experimented with, for the current novel, actually. I would say it was a failure in terms of content generated, but perhaps not so much in terms of structure. 

Writing at this pace has been good for me. I have less of the bipolar ups and downs. Or rather, it's in a much less compressed time-scale. That's worth something, at least. 

24/11/2009

Nov. 24th, 2009 05:46 pm
I've been thinking.

And this is not always a good thing.

But I've been thinking, and thinking, and thinking, and I've landed myself in some kind of hell pit.

This hell pit is called "If your novel is no longer a novel, whatever the hell is it?"

18/11/2009

Nov. 18th, 2009 08:59 pm
Moving on from the block. 

I don't think I've gotten this far (in terms of word count or story) before, though it still is disheartening that I've twice as much in cut wordage as I do in actual wordage. 

12/11/2009

Nov. 12th, 2009 11:38 pm
The addition of just one shelf does wonders for the tidiness of my room. 

I wonder if I could do the same with one extra book for my current WIP*. 

I've been thinking and thinking and thinking about what my book is about. 

It's not about a revolution this time...

Oh. OOH. *has heart palpitations* OOOOOOOOOOOH! 

*A duology...better than a trilogy, right? 

11/11/2009

Nov. 11th, 2009 10:44 pm
I had to post because 11/11!! 

I may have resolved a key issue that has had me rewriting the same scenes over and over again. 

I say 'may' because it works in my head, but that construction is not the same as the one that will be on paper. 

10/11/2009

Nov. 10th, 2009 10:58 pm
Back from Italy. Good trip. Lots of food and shopping and historical sites. 

The writing has not improved. If I go snippety snip snip again over the same section, I'm just going to quit.* 

Justine Musk wrote about limits. 

I think I may have to give one to what the pathmaker remembers, and proceed from there. Though I honestly don't think I've changed how much she remembers...maybe I need to change some other parameter. 

*Unless I get inspired on how to skip this scene before that. 

01/11/2009

Nov. 1st, 2009 11:43 pm
If you're taking part in NaNoWriMo, good luck!

If you're not, we can watch the lab mice run in the treadmill together.  
Well, not me exactly, but the lovely people at Wyrding Studios are!

I love Kythryne's work...I have probably at least half a dozen different pieces. Mm...Purple Purple, Toad Lily #5 (sadly broken), one of the first silk cords, The Mermaid's Bridesmaid's Dress, The Mermaid's Wedding Dress*, a copy of The Mermaid's Time Machine**, and 2 custom pieces that were exactly what I wanted.

I also love Kythryne's service, because she's put up with grace my many and constant address changes.

So go, buy!

*Yes, I do have a mermaid fetish. I don't know why but I do.

**It was a copy because the original was too large -- I think her bracelets are usually about 7 inches, but 6 inches is still a bit big for me.

27/10/2009

Oct. 27th, 2009 11:01 pm
The sum should be greater than the whole. That is the point of having a narrative.

25/10/2009

Oct. 25th, 2009 10:53 pm
Dormancy.

If I thought I had a muse, I would say that she/he/it was hibernating, i.e. dormant. Instead, I shall say that my passion for writing is currently dormant.

I expect that this blog will, therefore, be dormant in the interim as well. I will not be taking part in NaNoWriMo or any of its variants.

21/10/2009

Oct. 21st, 2009 10:37 pm
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16/10/2009

Oct. 16th, 2009 09:18 pm
I am very devoted to me, and as a writer, I am very devoted to my vision.

The hell with what the characters want.

15/10/2009

Oct. 15th, 2009 11:59 pm
I'm happy with my writing on a technical level, but not so much on a story level.

21/09/2009

Sep. 21st, 2009 09:17 pm
I surgically stitched back scenes I had thought were not right for the story. A bit of snipping here, and a bit of weaving there.

I think I can return to my hiatus.

It feels just right to stop where I have done. I need to think some more about what happens next, and how.
[info]moschus:

Writing fiction is serious business. It demands nothing less than everything you’ve got to give: your blood, sweat, heart and soul; your time; your ego. You expose yourself in your work and again when you show your work. It deserves to be taken seriously, and yet somehow we have to find a way to treat it lightly, hold it lightly, so it doesn’t slip away from us.

I have been meaning to write this post for awhile now, but the fabulous Justine Musk gave me a little push. 

I am not nearly as eloquent as Justine.

For me, it has simply been a case of gaining a little perspective on my work, and in particular, how I approach it.

I wanted to stop and think. That's why I chose such a long time for my hiatus, 2.5 months. Perhaps, subconsciously I also knew that is how long The Pathmaker had been in my head before I wrote down the first word.

Taking that route has made me more objective. I have fewer 'I am a sucky writer' days. True, I believe I haven't had enough practice to be anything but a sucky writer, but you know, it doesn't make me suicidal/depressed or kick the vicious cycle in either.

On the craft side, it has given me a measure of restraint I didn't use to have, both in the stylistic and the 'OMG, this is so bad and it has to go Right Now' sense. Now, I have the mental space to consider 'Is this where I think the story is going, or just where my writing preferences are leading me to?'

When I am not in the grip of 'create or die,' as Justine puts it, I feel freer. I am freer, not just to do whatever I want, but to create. And isn't that exactly the point?

Theme of my work:
Sometimes you can change the world. Sometimes you can't and have to leave. 
Because I cannot resist turning every WIP into an experiment with goal: Make M a Better Writer.

Why? Why not? 

With -- and goodness knows I hate this title but I haven't come up with a better one yet -- The Pathmaker, I'm going to make it stick to what happens in my head.

I'm not going to let the writing take it where it will. That is, I'm not going to let voice/style/ability dictate what happens in my stories.

If it wanders off-track, I'll drag it back to what I've already visualized in my head, by hook or by crook. People always say that if it wanders off-track, that's okay.

But since I haven't finished something yet, I've decided that it's within the acceptable bounds of probability to say that it doesn't work for me. And that's all that matters: me.

Now I just have to figure out whether I want to keep the whole scenes that I'm going to cut.

*mutters* I really really don't want to have to cut this scene!

Clutter

Sep. 18th, 2009 12:58 am
I really should be asleep.

But I cannot help myself.

I used to think my prose was clean and spare -- that's my preferred sense of aesthetics.

Hah.

I'll probably have another identical epiphany someday. That will be nice. It'll mean that I've improved.

Something else I've come to realise.

A character in a book has only one thought in her/his heads at a time. Kind of. I don't quite know how to articulate this epiphany. But it used to be that I struggled with the point of the scene because my POV character's thoughts wandered off track.

So the solution to that is restraint.